Wednesday, 7 August 2019

On clothes

I've been wearing jeans, hoodies and T-shirts for as long as I can remember. Always men's/unisex and I expect that will continue. People have never really batted an eye at that beyond the odd comment that it's not very feminine and as that is precisely what I have wanted that's really not been a problem for me. However, as my masculinity develops I've decided to up my game. I've been acquiring jackets, good shirts and even a couple of suits and silk ties from ebay. A couple of times I've caught myself being convincingly male in the mirror, so I am starting to switch to wearing the jackets and shirts more often.


Ebay has proved to be a surprisingly excellent hunting ground and I'm relieved at how relatively little this has cost overall compared to the cost of new clothes. The downside is that some of the sizing has been a bit variable as you might expect. The main problem for me is jacket sleeve lengths  which are all an inch or two too long, which need to be adjusted, but that should still come out overall as a win.

Speaking of passing, the other thing I am increasingly focusing on is my voice. It started to drop when I first started on T but until now I have consciously maintained my voice in the female register. I can go lower and  I'm now allowing that to happen more often. I'm getting used to my deeper voice, which cheers me greatly and now I'm finding it quite hard not to stay in the lower register.

I am also passing more frequently, Of course I am now consciously dressing to do so. As I do, I find I am walking taller, chest out and confident as a man about town. A recent visit to a DIY shop a while back with a day's worth of stubble saw the girl at the counter gently flirting with me and being incredibly helpful; I'm not used to this.  I flirted back shamelessly while maintaining a low and even voice. No-one in the shop appeared to bat an eyelid, so I'm pretty sure that all just worked. Similarly in shops I'm routinely greeted as 'Sir'. The big question is when I gather enough confidence and courage to officially do all the paperwork to change my name.

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